Friday, August 6, 2010

a word to you :)

i stop in a write a novel and then disappear for months and YOU are always there encouraging and loving me when i return. your comments were/are so appreciated! i shouldn't feel guilt with this- but i do. my interest in you and your life hasn't waned- i just have so little time to seek out your blogs for catching up and, well, that is hardly how i want it to be.
but again, thank you for caring- for leaving your powerfully positive words to me and i'll try to do better to do the same for YOU.
xoxo
now- onto what i haven't stopped to write about yet...

i left you in Dec with my testimony of God's love and the wonder of His works in my life! thankfully the journey hasn't been as bumpy since then but- my little family has felt just as much love :)

utah... i was able to visit in Dec with Emily and we had a fun trip! utah, for me, is a place to breath deeply and feel even deeper because i am surrounded by the love of my family. it's always too short- but also always long enough to get revived and nourished for the next leg of my journey. we had a wonderful Christmas- with the usual movies, food, parties and i was able to meet Will. not that Will will remember it- but how fun is it that technology is such that we are able to travel in hours instead of weeks these long distances?! and the baby that i wasn't there to welcome into the world can get to know me anyway- and i him- because of it? i LOVE this family. each and everyone adds joy to my life and i am so thankful for their efforts to be a part of my fond memories when i am there!


my parents gave me a beautiful drop pearl necklace as a surprise. i love it! :) em goes kicking and screaming but this trip was actually a health crisis free trip and i believe she too had fun! we came home in time to celebrate New Year's and to get our feet on the ground for our next semesters.

em barely escaped being tortured through the second part of spanish 4 and managed to get through her algebra 2 with a little tutoring help because of another round of sick days. she was transferred into a business class which she enjoyed but the highlight of the end of her sophmore year was art. she has such talent and we are excited to see her continue in the fall!



before i forget- i must write about the crazy winter we had! lots of snow fell, more than it had in years... even into april. we had so much snow fun! of course school was cancelled- for days! so we took advantage and played our hearts out... made snowmen, took TONS of photos in one gorgeous morning... and ate yummy winter goodies while watching movies and videoing (weird word!) our doing shadow puppet shows on the wall. shannon was with us a bunch as we all had a great time!

during this time frame i also as a single adult leader had the opportunity to help put together a conference for the metroplex area. this meeting was pull my hair out kind of planning and work but in the end the Lord created something pretty special.

as i mentioned, james ferrell accepted our invitation to join us and speak. he was fabulous! touched our hearts and souls with his message of Christ. he was our keynote speaker for the opening meeting and he brought the perfect message for us. but first! my girlfriends joni jensen and carlyna put together a song with a couple of other ladies that ushered in the spirit to an amazing degree. we KNEW that we were about to feel a powerful witness and it came- as to Heavenly Father's love for us. brother ferrell spoke about Christ and the atonement- painful trials and endurances... this talk was so touching that as we ended the meeting for lunch we all sang through our tears, "I Know That My Redeemer Lives." i am so grateful for the Lord's mercies in our lives. the testimony i have for the Savior and this gospel's knowledge grew but interestingly added to it my testimony of the SA program and how the Lord has His hand in it! time and time again we were led by the spirit in the planning. i knew that bro. ferrell was to come and speak- the names of our workshop speakers came so freely- and their topics. it was work, but everything kept falling into place and as it did felt stamped in the approval of our Heavenly Father.

and, following the coming and going of about 450 SA's who expressed their love and gratitude for the experience- i knew why it had been so. Heavenly Father knows we are here. He wants this group of people that have been on the outter edges to feel His love and to know that He was/is there for all of us.

a really cool thing came about following the lunch with bro ferrell :) pres riding invited jay, stacy (yes they got married!) and i into meet with bro ferrell for about an hour where we were able to share our appreciation and a bit of our stories with him. by this time i had cried so much (and no sleep for days) that i was pretty much a mess, lol. bro ferrell took each of my books that he had authored and that i had brought and signed them all, too. he said that it was a privilege for him to be at our conference- and for him to meet me and then he wished me the best in my scripture journey and in life. he also signed tay and em's books- which they will treasure forever as i do. not so much the celebrity aspect of the interaction... but the message that is for us all.

i recently read The Peacegiver again. the book is full of insight into how to work through our perceived injustices to see them as potential vanities that are our sins- just as jonah did with ninevah. it's easy for us all to call "foul ball!" but, we are not the Referee in the eternal realm. we have to do better to turn out hearts to Him for guidance and peace.

i also just finished reading The Hidden Christ which bro ferrell wrote about the old testament and how the scriptures contain Christ's life story in archtypes and similitudes. frankly- i was just blown away by the book. i need to know so much more than i do!


to continue with the conference- the workshops were phenominal. the dances and mingles were fun! the food and the service provided by our stake volunteers made my heart swell in gratitude. overall- the Lord was there in His glory and we were blessed with an outpouring of His Spirit. it was beautiful! :)



following the conference i still had to get my homework done and move forward- thankfully i was able to do so with another 4.0 with the blessings of my Heavenly Father :)

speaking of school- loved last semester but had my math assessment taken which concluded that i really belong in grade school! so this past summer i took 2 courses to catch me up to speed so that i could enroll in the classes i needed this fall. i just have to laugh as i think about the journey i'm on... no room for pride here!

i'm going to have to collect my thoughts about the next section of writing and get back to this blog after i do so.

i can't close without expressing gratitude for all that our Father has given my life- so many wonderful people and opportunities for loving and growing.

i wish you the very best and much love...

me :)

Sunday, August 1, 2010

a forgotten post finally published :)

i began the month with a status that i had intended to share what i was thankful for, asking you to add some of yours, with the intent to add one more item each day. well, my birthday came and the list was buried under my birthday wishes (so fun!) so i decided to just make a 'note' of it :) here is some of what i wrote to my missionary son, taylor, and below that, the list that was in the making earlier this month:

Hey Elder, i want you to know the things i am thankful for today- and everyday- but especially this week as we celebrate Thanksgiving. i am thankful for being born into the family that i was given! no one was perfect or even close to what they are today. but everyone has tried to become better people and always have had love for one another. Add the atonement and forgiving and repentance, my family has blossomed! tay, there were many difficulties once upon a time, and sometimes there still are... but the atonement is such a blessing to heal hearts and to help love and understanding grow into an amazing thing. today i love my parents more than i ever have. they call to see how i am, they pray for me, they make sure that i get to come to utah when i don't/can't spend the money, and most of all- they love you and em so deeply and so openly that it just makes me love and appreciate them that much more! despite any faults (which are few!) that any of us have- every member of our family has stayed close to the gospel and to Christ and our family is truly blessed because of it. i am thankful that i had the opportunity to be raised in the gospel. i am thankful that i went to primary, yw's, attended sacrament meetings, that i watched countless people go to the temple to be married!

i am thankful that eternal families are the focus of so many different lessons and talks. i am thankful beyond expression for the atonement and the life that Christ lived! everyone has a moment that they suffer or sin and it is such a joy to know that through Him i can heal and repent and live life joyfully. the gospel and Christ are the core of the happiness i feel, despite the hardships that i may endure. i've learned that those very hardships make me that much more important to Him because it is through those trials that i learn, grow, further root myself in the foundation of truth so that i may be helpful to His other children.

sometimes i don't know where the strength will come from, but i do know whatever i need for the task will be provided. what a blessing that is all by itself! i am thankful for the beauty of the earth- for grass and soil, for sand and rock (i especially like the red kind :) for trees, and flowers, and the scents of mother earth- the quiet beauty of a river or lake and the grandness of the ocean. i'm thankful for the amazing, vast world of insects and animals even though i don't ever think i'll care much for red ants! oh, and i love i love seasonal changes and how the breezes let us know that we are alive :) i am thankful for the home and place that we live. flower mound has been a gift of home away from home. what wonderful, sincere, loving friends we've found living here! our lives have been eternally touched and blessed because of our time spent in texas.

i am thankful for you and emily. my two babies that i love more than i ever thought i could love! there have been ups and downs and smiles, laughing, giving! yes, there has been hurt- but again, our loving Savior and Heavenly Father have wrapped us up in their arms and have led us through those times. i see the brightest future for you two! i'm so excited that your love for each other has grown this past year... and hopefully the love that we share for each other will always anchor us when times are hard. i want you to know that i pray fervently for you and em. i attend the temple and seek inspiration in your behalf. i serve in my calling with all of my heart so that you will have a positive example of service in your lives. i work hard so that you will know the value of it- which isn't money- but rather the quality of life that is gained when one is positively engaged in good works. you two are my deepest love and joy and of all i have, you are the most loved and served.

i am thankful for the gift of learning and curiosity! what a gift the world is- it's history, it's sciences, it's people, it's diversity! i am thankful for books and the creative minds that have given us music and art, and thoughtful ideas to explore- even the moments when gifts of genious in the form of humor are shared. this world is full of delight! i am thankful for my years of service in the gospel. i have grown through my callings and each one has contributed to me becoming a more thoughtful spirit. we are so blessed to have the opportunity to serve in so many ways! i have especially loved working with the children, youth, and my SA's. teaching has been a stretching experience and as usual, i have learned more from the lessons that i have taught than i suspect anyone has learned from me.

i love my SA's. i think and pray about them often. they are a group that Heavenly Father loves beyone my capacity to understand. they are the most giving, supportive, and service oriented people i know- and they do it all even though most of them have a yearning for an eternal relationship that hasn't yet been realized. i don't know that anyone knows how difficult that journey is. i see more faith from the faithful in my SA's than i ever have ever known. i am thankful for missionary work. i love what you are doing- what all missionaries are doing! such hard work! i don't know what to say, but other than the gospel, my family, and the work/school that i do, missionary work is what is on my mind... i pray for the work to continue to move forward and that you and the other missionaries are blessed with courage, the Spirit, health, and love so that you may accomplish all that the Lord needs from you.

i am thankful for the Spirit. i have been guided and blessed beyond expression because of the Spirit. i feel closer now than i have ever known! i had an amazing experience recently. i went in for a mammogram where they found a growth. further tests (2 more confirmed it) and so a biopsy was required. early on, after the first test, the Spirit let me know that i would have my answers on my birthday-and there was a calmness to it. well, when the biopsy was scheduled on my birthday, i wasn't surprised, but i couldn't understand what the Spirit had shared because i would have to wait for results. i had had a priesthood blessing, i had had my name in the temple, i had had the Bishop and Stake Presidency aware of my situation and with all of them i shared what the Spirit had communicated. so, on the day of the biopsy, the nurse explained to me that if everything was okay that i would know right at that moment- no waiting! and as you have guessed, they were able to tell as they drew the fluid out that it was benign. the Spirit is a blessing and it's guidance and help is invaluable to me! i could go on... but i will stop now :)

i hope that you have a wonderful Thanksgiving. i hope that some family will take you in and feed you a lovely meal. even if that doesn't happen and you end up eating tuna sandwiches, you can thank your Heavenly Father for the tuna sandwich and know that you are loved... by SO many.

love you and have a GREAT week! ~mom

the following is the list that i began earlier in the month:

Rhonda: time to refocus on things to be thankful for... i am thankful for the growing experiences. (i never knew i was part of the elastic clause, lol) got one to add?
Stephanie Miller: Love it Rhonda! I am thankful for crisp fall air and the smell of a bonfire with kids laughing around it.
Rebecca Holtom Billat: I am thankful that my son is on a mission and is turning into a man before my eyes. Nothing better!!
Suzanne Cook Taylor: Yes, I have one to add. I am so grateful to Heavenly Father that little Manda is doing so well. She had her annual exam yesterday from Dr. Judd who comes down from Primary Children's Hospital to see how Manda's heart is doing. Yesterday they took an ultrasound and found she is doing extremely well! Yay, Manda!! Love you to pieces :-).
Rhonda: thinking of Fort Hood families...so thankful that America has the armed forces but even more thankful for the men and women that make it happen. very sad things happen daily- including the lack of support from their commander in chief, but these fine people still serve with their hearts. Thank you to our past and present military! @mom- that is GREAT news about mandy! :)
Rhonda: when i see others and their struggles, it makes blessings more apparent. we all have them- different shapes, sizes, and scopes... this is about recognizing and then expressing!! i am thankful for the opportunity to be in school while working and being a mom.
Rhonda: today i'm thankful specifically for VETERANS. both of my grandfathers (yes, i still have both!) served and fought in WWII- one as a Marine, the other in the Navy. i'm so proud of them and LOVE them DEARLY :D Happy Veterans Day!!!
Rhonda: what a daughter i have! i am grateful for my em, who sat by my side and helped me with an excel program assignment after her youth group activity. what a smart, cute, sweetie!

Suzanne Cook Taylor: Yay, Em!
Rhonda: thankful for the plan of salvation and temples...
Rhonda: thankful for the times when there is more peace than normal :)
Rhonda: is thankful for the people that inspire and believe in me
Suzanne Cook Taylor: Thankful for my sweet Rhonda Leilani :-)!
Rhonda: is thankful for the warmth and comfort of a home :)
Rhonda: i am thankful for wonderful friends :)

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank; people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis it is between you and God-It was never between you and them anyway.
~kent keith

Saturday, March 13, 2010

back from the abyss- temporarily :)

if for no other reason, i am here for me and the record which i hope to keep of the struggles and triumphs that i experience...

i looked back at the last entry and it spoke of James Ferrell and my excitement at being able to contact him. that was august??? wow.

today is march 12th and so much has occured since then. in short, i began school and struggled to find a balance with going back to school full-time, being a mom, working, and my church responsibilities with the single's program- which included a conference that in my last entry i hoped James Ferrell would speak at. through all kinds of twists and turns that is exactly what happened and i must say it was so worth the efforts! more on that later...

back to my fall. i am currently running 3 preschool aged classes and teaching piano to 12 students. my back to school schedule included 4 classes with a dollar bill attached to it. let me explain...

sometime in early oct i was given the opportunity to get a mammogram for $11. it was an opportunity that i couldn't resist so i scheduled and went and shortly after i was called and told that something was found. that was troubling as i don't have health insurance. i fall under the 'pre-existing conditions' clause that is quite convenient for them but not so much for me :)

fortunately a place called bridge breast network lets applicants apply for assistance, which i did, and they took care of me from then forward with scheduling the follow-up exams. i was referred to a cancer center in Denton for my next test and somewhere in that time frame i had a strong impression that i would know what i needed to know by my birthday (looking weeks ahead into november). when i arrived for my follow-up the cancer center had to reschedule me because the other films had not arrived yet. i personally picked them up and rescheduled.

during this time it was hard to keep my head in the work i was supposed to be doing at school but i did my best. i asked my friend and our Bishop to give me a blessing. i told my family and a few close friends. also during this time i received a call from my credit card company offering their insurance on my credit for 'life events.' i thought about the upcoming tests and decided to take a look at their offer. it was during this investigation that i learned that the credit insurance would also kick into gear if i was a student and if as a full-time student i made a 3.6 or higher. i took the bait and went for my next visit, scheduled on november, fri the 13th. yikes! during this visit they did another kind of mammogram and saw the cyst in my breast wall- but not well enough to rule one way or another so they asked me to stay for a sonogram.

the sonogram confirmed that i needed a biopsy and that would have to be scheduled. as i stood at the counter to schedule (honestly fighting back tears) the gal told me that november 19th was available. i looked at her and said, "that's my birthday." she replied with the desire to change to another date- telling me that i didn't want to spend my birthday that way. but because of the impression that i had received i told her that i DID want that date. it still made no sense to me because i knew lab work had to be sent away but i went and during the biopsy both the doctor and assistant let out a sigh at the giving way of the cyst and so i had to ask- does that mean you know something? they were both ready to confirm to me that my cyst was benign. this story was about a tender mercy- and it continues.

just after i was given a clean bill of health i had a couple of friends tutor me in excel and access while the stake presidency asked it i would give a talk about being single. the date? the evening of my last final- a night that i was also scheduled to feed the missionaries :) wow...i hardly had time to breath the next few weeks and never did get around to writing a talk. on the night before the final and my talk my brother called me.

i was very tired- brain completely done absorbing info so i took the time to extend a few questions his way regarding my talk and the subject. he probablyy doesn't know this- but our talk brought me to tears thinking about what it is to be single and the enormous pressure i was feeling to speak about it- wanting to do it justice but more importantly, saying what Heavenly Father wanted me to say. talking to bj helped me focus and it was then that i prayed and got ready for bed.

at 4:30 that morning i woke up to a message from Heavenly Father that was given to me in my dream. i recalled a story that our prophet had told us during conference and with that the strongest impression where that story was to lead. i jumped up and ran to the computer and began typing, while crying- the Spirit was so strong. i just felt guided! when the inspiration stopped i got ready to go to my final along with a quick review. the test went well- i ran to get the mishes some food and then home to finish writing my talk.

the day was some kind of miracle marathon. my time allotment to speak was just 8 minutes- but something changed that opened up 20 minutes for me. i shared the message, the Spirit joined in and i believe that it was pleasing to our Father. there were so many comments afterwards- people wanting to tell me their stories, my stake president telling me i hit it out of the park... it was such a relief to be an instrument in His hands for and behalf of the singles. at the end of this entry i am including my talk :)

one week later i received my grades: 4.0! i was so excited i did a happy dance like none other!!! i sent my grades into the card company and they have paid my last three months of balance along with my premium on the insurance. what a blessing!!!

to back track a little... em took drivers ed this fall, tay turned 20 and spent his first birthday away from home. em is now a gorgeous 16 and looking forward to getting her license while Elder B is a zone leader with the zeal of Brigham! i love my children :) also, during those crazy months i decided to create a book for Christmas for the family titled: The Family, a Proclamation to the World. it required a great deal of time and help from my sibs but i managed to get it done and ready for em and my trips to Utah for Christmas.

It's spring break this week. i hope to write more... if i don't then i need to say how much i am grateful for our Savior and Father's love, for the love of my parents, brothers, sisters, children, and friends. i am so lucky- so blessed :)

rhonda

preface- i did my best to use the talk as a springboard- so many of these thoughts had personal touches, led by the Spirit. anyway, here it is in type and i hope that the message can shine through!

I am humbled by the responsibility to address you, and yet I am grateful for the opportunity to do so. By way of introducing myself, I am Rhonda Barron and I am a single parent in this stake, who has been richly blessed by this gospel and the Single Adult program.

Last April, as I sat in a single adult conference and heard the message that “Christ was an administer of healing to others.” The speaker then prompted us to to ponder what our own ministry might be, so i asked, “What is my personal ministry?” It was in that moment that I knew what Heavenly Father needed of me- the Spirit washed over me, sharing: my ministry was to be within the singles program, with the singles in this gospel.

A little back story… up to that point I had eventually chosen to sustain the Lord’s single adult program, despite the stigma associated. Slowly I had learned that just like any other program within the gospel, the single adult program was what I personally made of it! As my attitude changed, so did my heart, and as often happens when a spirit gains a testimony, my love for the program grew as did my feelings for those I was meeting.

When I look back on my personal growth through this program, I recognize that my own Grinch heart had grown 'three sizes that day’! Instead of joining the ‘whoville’ dinner as the new big hearted Grinch did, I found myself a couple of months later with a phone invitation to sit across the desk from President McEntire, where I was extended the calling to be one of this stake’s single adult reps. :)

How can this pursuit of a personal ministry be applied to all of us, specifically to ‘rescuing’? The Lord wants us to step up and ask, ‘what is my personal ministry?’ We then can turn to blessings, scripture, prayer, and the temple, when seeking an answer.

In a recent conference talk given by Pres. Monson, we were taught to “Be of Good Cheer” as he shared the story (that brought us all to tears) of the woman in East Prussia who had lost her husband in WWII and then was required to move in the cold winter, by walking months with her four children to a new home. The elements and lack of food proved to be too harsh for her little crew, and one by one this mother found herself burying each child in the frozen ground with a tablespoon as her tool.

Around 4:30 this morning I was awakened to this very story following an emotional night with my Heavenly Father regarding this talk and what the Spirit wanted me to convey. Very clearly, following the prophet’s story and words, this next thought followed; the singles of today are yesterday's pioneers in their struggles.

We as singles are often alone and struggling while experiencing many hardships as the adversary makes every effort to beat us down. This explains the staggering statistics of how many singles remain active in the gospel vs. those that fall away.

Brothers and sisters, I’m humbly asking that if you were to have had come across this sweet mother in your life’s journey, would you have stopped to put your arms around her, offer words of comfort, even kneel beside her and offer help in her impossible task of burying her child?’

Let’s ponder and inquire of the Lord what we each might do to reach out and kneel side by side someone who is struggling within the Lord’s Single Adult program. ]

How can we help our brother, our sister? Love w/o judgment. Did you know that it is currently estimated that 48% of the church is single? Through death or divorce, you or someone you deeply love will be a part of this, the fastest growing demographic in the church. You have the opportunity in knowing this, to actively participate in building up the program, starting with a man or woman that you know- and showing love, and if applicable, extending that love to their children.

Include a single in your family’s activities and prayers, and encourage/invite to all of the activities! A gospel centered approach is the answer, and personal contact is the key. Together as a family we must recognize the value of home and visiting teaching, and contribute to the building up of this program w/: energy, enthusiasm, service, and a positive attitude along with finding a way to be very positive about what Heavenly Father intended to happen in this program of the church.

There is joy in this gospel and there is joy within this single’s program in this gospel! Heavenly Father wants each of us to know that we are eternal beings, whether we are married, or not! He wants us to know our eternal value and to be in the Temple being taught! Additionally, He wants us to be serving one another with a glad heart! I love serving this group of saints. I have seen miracles in abundance in my own life and in that of others, through works of service. I have also found that just one spark of the Spirit can redirect a life towards an eternal path! It is joyous in the way Heavenly Father wished, and I am so grateful for the offer of Joy in the Journey, no matter my marital status!

Pres. Monson continued in his talk saying, “The future is as bright as your faith! The history of the Church in this, the dispensation of the fullness of times, is replete with the experiences of those who have struggled and yet who have remained steadfast and of good cheer as they have made the gospel of Jesus Christ the center of their lives. This attitude is what will pull us through whatever comes our way. It will not remove our troubles from us but rather will enable us to face our challenges, to meet them head on, and to emerge victorious.”

In an address to single adult members of the Church, President Gordon B. Hinckley said: "Because you do not happen to be married does not make you essentially different from others. All of us are very much alike in appearance and emotional responses, in our capacity to think, to reason, to be miserable, to be happy, to love and be loved. "You are just as important as any others in the scheme of our Father in Heaven, and under His mercy no blessing to which you otherwise might be entitled will forever be withheld from you. "You are precious and important to Him. You are precious and important to the Church. You are precious and important to all of us."

I know this is true- my little family has been loved and served well. This has been a blessing that I have been eternally grateful for, and I would like to share some of this with you tonight:

1. Friends fasted in behalf of my spirit. After my divorce I was at a spiritual low, they knew I needed help and they gathered together in my behalf. And look, today I am able to stand up here and speak to you about it!

2. Home and Visiting Teachers served consistently in our home.

3. Young Men and Young Women leaders have continually reached out to my children in love. I now have a son serving in a California mission and a daughter that is doing great!

4. Within a few minutes of the tornado this summer our ward preparedness leader, and my friend Jay, my home teacher, my neighbor, and a call from my Bishop who was out of town, all reached out to me. I was overwhelmed by all of the attention.

5. My home was pretty battered from the storm. My home teacher’s son and companion helped organize the building of a new fence for us.

6. Countless inquiries, hugs, tears, and encouragement from a variety of sources.

7. And finally, the ministry of angels from a loving Father.

Despite the challenges and struggles that one faces following divorce, through the love, fellowship, and service of my ward family, the love of our Eternal Father, and the atonement of our dear Savior, my little family remains strong and steadfast in this gospel. I pray that this may be the experience of all within our ward families.

One of my single friends mentioned to me, “The Shepherd's fold, the ward family, is a safe haven from the world. No matter what our family status, we can be strengthened and strengthen others through the programs and established haven of the church.”

(I closed with my testimony of the positive good that reaching out with love and service can do- and I want you to know that Heavenly Father loves you- just keep looking to Him and the Savior and reach! By the way, I love you too :)

Monday, August 24, 2009

a note from my favorite author...:)

as many of you know, i have hurt my right hand pinkie and am finding it difficult to do anything, let alone type. the timing of this is especially troublesome because my first semester in school since 24 years ago, started today...

also, as many of you have heard, i had the opportunity to reach out to James Ferrell and share my feelings regarding his books. he reponded, and that is something that i would like to share with you:

Rhonda,

Thank you for sending me your remarkable story. I always stand amazed at the Lord's merciful work in each of our lives. Sometimes, in the middle of it, the merciful gestures are unrecognized. In retrospect, however, they testify of a patient and loving father. I will treasure your story. And what a wonderful thing to have a son like your Taylor, who is serious about serious things. I'm sure that the strength he has received through hardship will serve him and others well on his mission.

Thanks again.

Jim

i just wrote tay and shared this response with him as well. honestly? i'm so grateful that i've had the chance to tell a man that made such a difference in my life, exactly that! it began with my sister Candice, placing the book into my hands and from there, straight into my needy soul.

so, with school and a pinkie gone awry, my entries will be a rare occurance- and keeping up on the blogs you write as well, but i know that you will be supportive and at the same time you will know how much i love and appreciate you.

rhonda

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Family, Utah and the Freedom Festival



greetings y'all!

i'm a bit torqued, if i may say. i wrote bunches last night and quit to help emma with something. we got to bed late and at some point the comp powered down and blogger did nothing to save my work.
i hate going back to step one- yet here i am!

i was in utah seeing family the week of the 4th.
being in utah at that time of year is a treat!
we enjoyed attending the Patriotic Service held at BYU's Marriott center. Matthew Holland was the guest speaker, music was generally by the Osmonds, 2nd Generation and the Wasatch Winds Symphonic Band.
additionally, we were treated with bagpipes and an extremely well done, very respectful flag ceremony.
Matthew Holland is Elder Holland's son. He gave a wonderfully insightful talk about Abraham Lincoln- even finding the above photo- proving that AL was a UVU alumni. ;)
k- this blogger/pic thing is driving me crazy! i'll add a photo- it brings it in and places it at the top- which throws all of my dialog off... i'm sorry, but why is it that blogger hasn't been able to let you add a photo to where you are in your text? hum?

moving along...
dad and mom threw a yummy dutch oven picnic for the families, including grandpa stan and charlotte. we had delish dutch over chicken and even more delish dutch oven cobbler :)
we had a surprise visit from david and lisa with their youngest, dakota, and pam. it was great seeing family that i hadn't seen in many years.
one of the many highlights of the afternoon was the opportunity to take photos of the kids while they were playing. love that! andy got a game of football going and at a break in the action i took a team photo. waaaay cute! we had hoped to do fireworks but the weather didn't cooperate- so that was rescheduled.
i have to say- cleaning out 8 dutch ovens was anything but pleasurable- but since it was dad and i, it was fun. we scraped and scrubbed and gagged and...lol... we did a great job of it!


i love my walks up the canyon to bridal veil falls. i only walked it twice during the week- the first one w/my camera. i was more concerned about trying new things with settings than i was about just taking photos- so my collection is a bore to the viewer- but this leaf photo is one that i felt i accomplished the lighting/setting as i had hoped to.
BVF's is a sanctuary to me. i love it- the walk takes effort; it's a 10 mile round trip. but the landscape, the sounds, the smells, the abundant visual opportunity is breathtaking.
another fun activity that takes place 3 days during the week is the Balloon Fest. Dani was able to join us (dad, mom, myself) and we arrived, cameras in tow, promptly at 6:30 a.m. it was educational seeing how the hot air balloons worked- so i took my version of a documentary of the event. i have tons of photos from the beginning of the process through the end. dad and dani are more artistic. that's something i need to make myself do more of :)
we had a fun time and added to that fun by meeting everyone for breakfast afterward. there's always the best food in utah! and i have to admit, that i ordered 2 eggs and dessert: the strawberry shortcake. lol- wow!
i'm going to publish this much before adding another photo messes up what i've been working on. more to come soon!




















Tuesday, July 14, 2009

nearly a month has gone by... ouch!

i was sitting here thinking- nah. i'll write some in the morning... but i just can't put this off any longer: there's too much to catch up on! going back an entire month is not just hard but CRAZY. however, lol, i'll do my best :)
oh- and it didn't help to find out that yahoo 360 was shutting down- yikes! last night i had intended on writing here, along with writing tay's letter, only to find out that i (along with all my family) had to save both em's and my entries on that blog. i did get it done tho! all saved to a WORD doc. mine being close to 200 pages. LOL. and i didn't save everything! i will be backdating this blog with those entries at some point...
mom and dad decided to drive to texas in june to bring me the car that they were selling. while dad was only here a short time, he did get to begin to use his new camera :) we ran around getting the car title changed over to a texas driver (me!), went out to eat, saw Star Trek and out to the river for some family photos. i am SO glad that i have these pics dad: Thank You!!! i'm also very excited about the car- now i just need to unload my mazda. hey- if anyone out there wants a two year lease- i'm your gal! (not me the CAR, silly:) just a moment to say- mom and dad- i love you both so much. and i very much appreciate the lengths you'll go to, to help me and the others in this family. to everyone- my parents ROCK.

mom and i then got ourselves together after a crazy week of my camp/piano schedule (mom is a great camper helper:) and took off for the 2009 Cook reunion in Stephenville, TX. it was great seeing lots of familiar faces and catching up- but mostly we loved the time spent with Grandma and Grandpa Cook and Aunt Bobbie. we talked, took pictures, and enjoyed good meals :)
on our way home from the reunion, we had made plans to visit Woody, mom's cousin and his family in garland texas. on the way i talked her into stopping and checking out the animals at Fossil Rim. That place is so much fun! it's not too far- maybe 90 min's/2 hours but the experience was so entertaining that it is completely worth the effort! while you drive through the park, you stop where there are animals so that you can feed them and take pictures. we giggled our faces off we had so much fun! part of the excitement was learning how close you wanted the animals to get to you. they are entirely comfortable walking right up to your face, with theirs! at first we didn't know this- and i remember saying, 'he's acting like he wants me to pet him!' well, after that i quickly found out that they were happy to eat the feed right from your hands. it was breathtaking being so close to those beautiful creatures. i got fairly comfy with them right away- but mom seemed to like her space and i'm tellin' ya- don't get near her window if she has her finger on the button. she's hilarious! so to share- here are a couple of photos:





mom took this photo of me (in the tye-dyed shirt that i made with emily) and it's my favorite: yes, both the shirt and the picture! i really will always just treasure getting to interact with these gorgeous, sweet creatures!

we did get to Amy's, where Woody and Carolyn are staying, and had a yummy Father's day meal with them while we visited. Woody is not well, but he is better and this is giving them all a chance to spend some quality time together.
so- it's time to stop and get to posting tay's letter. but i will mention some things i will be writing about.
for one thing, em was around but only a little bit because shw was gone to EFY and then to girl's camp. so i'll post some things about that... and then i'll update you regarding my return to school, my chance to teach gospel doctrine this coming sunday, along with the opportunity i have to go on exchanges with the sister missionaries this friday. of course, the biggest entry of all- my trip to utah!
and somewhere in there, i'm going to be visiting other blogs and getting caught up. thanks for your patience and love! see you soon!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

what a crazy life!



let's go back to the weekend of june 5-7... this is a pic of me at a dinner for singles. we met at spring creek bbq before heading to a single's dance. i decided to try to enlist participation and fun and i think it went pretty well...! i think my lucky hat game was a hit: if you put the hat on, you were kissed- and of course there was a camera to capture it! i like to take pics and post them on facebook (FB) because i think the more it shows that we're having fun, and the more faces that are seen, the better chance there is of getting people out and mingling.



this photo is from the single's fireside that weekend. our stake was in charge, and jay, my good friend was solo in preparation, so i joined in and worked to make it a good one. in the end we had Pres. and Sister Thurston, and Sis Payne, who is related to Pres. Hinckley there to speak (all pictured) they did a great job of sweet testimonies and interesting insights and can you believe? just shy of 90 singles came! just amazing really! it was so worth the work and i hope that we can continue to build the program around the metroplex.

one of the men i met over the weekend told me that if the program had been as good one year ago, he believed he might not have married so quickly and in the end, be divorced a 2nd time. i don't know- but i do know that this group of people, MY group of people need lots of love in friendships, coupled with uplifting experiences to work through there individual 'issues'.

my next project is to get a temple night started... i'll keep you posted ;)

oh! before i forget- my friend ron rhoades held a b-day party for all the june b-days. this photo below is of me at that party with a new friend and convert jack; what a great guy and just one example of reaching out and bringing in! and, let me say- i really appreciate men like ron who open their homes up for get togethers. :)



so summer camps have begun...wheeee! my first two weeks i've only had one girl. wow- crazy!

and to add to the crazy, we were hit by a storm this past wed. that produced a category one tornado just a minute from my home:



it damaged my large old silver maple in the front and destroyed my huge tree in the back... along with the fence and probably some structural in the patio roof. actually, we were really blessed to only have that to deal with- but it has been a ton of clean up and it's still on-going. sigh. oh well!

i thought that rather than re-type everything that i wrote to tay this week regarding this and other things, i'd just post my letter to him: (oh and fyi, this looks normal in edit but on the blog the spacing is funky. sorry!)

so, you wrote tues and on wed, wed evening, we had a huge storm. actually, a tornado! right on morriss! it was close to the apartments and while it barely made a category one, it did cause some damage. our big old fron tree only has three branches left- and the back tree by the fort is gone completely. we had winds of 60-80 mph- it was crazy. mostly the house is ok, but, they are checking the patio roof for structural damage and the front corner of the garage for the same thing. oh- and almost all of the fence is down.

i was home alone, em was at dad's so i sent a text to him asking for him to get her in a safe place. and i actually sat in the closet! it was really cool tho- i had bro marks, and my home teacher, and bro coombs all at our home in minutes cking up on me- and the bishop called from high adventure! the next day a group of men and boys from the ward came and hauled all my dead tree stuff to the curb. it was so kind of them- i didn't even ask- they just arranged it because they knew i was in need. i felt very looked after and loved, and in sacrament meeting the prayers reflected a people who acknowledged their Father's hand in our protection and the service rendered.

many ward members lost power, too. i only had trouble for a few minutes but there were lots who lost it for days. anyway, the neighorhood and morriss look terrible because of all of the downed trees but for the most part, it is just a mess.

here's a really cool couple of mish stories for you from me (hehe): so- i did arrange to take katy to do baptisms, and she and em and i went to the temple sat afternoon. afterwards we went to lunch and had the opp to talk a little. she just graduated and had plans to move from her dad's to her aunts. katy's mom has never been a part of her life, and currently her dad has a new g/friend that doesn't like that katy was baptized- which is why she was moving. but then the aunts kids got involved and said they didn't want katy moving in because she was mormom...so now katy is stuck. i told her she was welcome to my home anytime- that em and i just hang out anyway. she seemed grateful. then at church our RS president came up and said that she's felt inspired to give me Katy's name for visiting teaching. i don't know what i'm supposed to do- but it feels like i'm supposed to be involved. we shall see! but the temple was awesome for all of us and we're going again as soon as i get back from all the family trips :) we took a couple of pics for you, too!

after the temple i was supposed to go home and try to get ready for mom and
dad to visit. with the storm, i was way behind- because i forgot to tell you that i had the Richards come to our home when i learned that they didn't have power. they didn't stay the entire time, but between that and working, i wasn't getting anything done. but i felt very impressed to go to a baptism that was scheduled, so i did. the sisters asked me to take pictures, and i was, when as we were finishing, a woman walked in that i had met at my camps. she had her son hayden enrolled. we really hadn't talked much until one day she came in late and shook up. it was the morning after the storm and we thought it was because of that- but it turns out she was trying to quit smoking and had a car accident on the way over to us. anyway, tay, she was at the baptism to see what one was like because she wanted to be baptized. i just hugged her and asked her to sit by me in the service. we talked and i answered any of her questions she had. she was like a child in her curiosity and spirit. i then found out that because she is getting a divorce and is in school, hayden will be in my camps all summer long! i told her that we would love on him and i hope that i showed her by by words and actions that i am someone she can talk to and become friends, with. she's scheduled to be baptized on the 20th!

oh- and here's another! you know bryce that came to help at your eagle project with that other guy (can't remember his name! starts with an m... curly dark hair) anyway- he went to high adventure and that's when bishop found out that he is Katy's brother! both of those boys apparently had a good experience going. so stay tuned!

i saw seth- he's leaving soon for hawaii... he said he wrote! yay!

my dad has been here since sat evening. they drove up and brought me that car- so nice of them! dad is leaving today. mom and i will leave for the reunion early fri and return sunday. mom goes home monday. we saw star trek and had dinner last night. we've had some good movies lately! i'm buying the DVDs :) on sunday we went to church, had a yummy roast dinner, and went to take pics.. so more for you. yay!

SO YOU FINALLY GOT THE JERICHO!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!! lol...so fun! k, i heard that you have newsletters within the mission- please save those and even send them home so i can, would you? i'd love to read the old issues! anyway, i'm so happy that the work is going so well and that you achieved that goal! i know that it is still onward and upward but man that had to feel great!

is the baptism still on the docket? i can't wait to hear!

LOVED the story of weed pulling service. i totally have a testimony of service- for many reasons. i can't wait for updates on these stories!

i put your and your comps names in at the temple. :)

i'm glad that there is some fun mixed in with the work. everyone needs to have down time and laughter. so fun that you get to play foosball!

I WISH I COULD BE AT THE BAPTISM- BUMMER! lol...but so glad that you're getting to do one so soon. i'm so excited for paige :) :) :)

it's so cool that you've developed a relationship with pres brady and sis brady. it makes me think of that salesman in mr macs who talked so highly of them. they must be amazing and it's such a blessing that good hearted people go on missions to bless the lives of missionaries and those they are teaching. honestly, i hope that dream doesn't pass me by.

i love you son. i miss you. im so freakin proud of you, too! you're a man that grows everytime i hear from you into a better and stronger man. yes, missionary work is your calling- and you've been blessed to be there at this time and moment. and you are so good at it- but you need to know that Heavenly Father has more work for you to do unpon your return to home. He (and many of us) know that your potential in education is untapped- that you will come back and apply yourself to your future because being a husband and father is the next great missionary work that you will do. when it's done right, just as your exact obedience and love is showing you now, you will be blessed beyone measure in happiness and love. it's really kind of exciting, actually... :)

can't wait to hear from you!!!!

mom
(this post may go down as my longest...!)

these pics are from mom and dad's visit:







we're having a great time! em has now left for EFY and dad has made it back home safely- and mom is watching the news while i'm catching up :)

we're looking forward to the reunion and seeing the family there! more on that, soon.

i think, finally, i can comment regarding my talk. it went well and i'm thankful for the opportunity it gave me to research reverence...some absolutely wonderful things to ponder- so to conclude i'm posting the talk below. read, or not- but here it is for my journaling purposes anyway...lol ;)


Good morning brothers and sisters! I’m so thankful to be here today. I feel that the Spirit has guided me to have experiences this past week that would teach me a deeper respect and understanding of this topic I’ve been given.

Today’s talk is ‘Showing Reverence for the Sacrament Meeting and the Sacrament’- and I was asked to reference Elder Featherstone’s talk ‘Sacrament Meeting and the Sacrament’. I also looked into the scriptures, and into some things that Bro. Bytheway and Bro. Truman Madsen had to say. There are many amazing thoughts on this subject.

Elder Featherstone offers a scenario: 'Imagine a person has come to sacrament meeting feeling desperate, lonely, and hurting. This person comes a few minutes early, being greeted in the foyer by loving members. He enters the chapel, where there is a spirit of reverence. The organist is playing worshipful music, having arrived early and selected from the hymnbook several pieces as prelude music. The organist might well have prayed, “Heavenly Father, help me to choose hymns that will soothe the troubled heart.”

The person sits quietly for 10 minutes and listens to the music. He can feel its soothing influence in his soul.

The bishopric is on the stand six or seven minutes prior to the meeting. The meeting starts on time. The congregation joins in singing a spiritually uplifting hymn. A thoughtful prayer is given on behalf of ward members and others, and it contains expressions of gratitude, love, and pleading for the needs of the members and others.
A sacrament hymn is sung, and again the Holy Spirit rests upon the congregation. The sacrament is blessed and passed with great dignity, and the congregation partakes, renewing their covenants made at baptism.

Youth and adult speakers address subjects that can bind the broken heart, lift the downtrodden, and provide rest for the weary and hope for the despairing. A choir sings a hymn, or some other kind of sacred music provides an additional spiritual experience for those who have gathered.

The concluding remarks are made, followed by a beautiful closing hymn from the hymnbook. A closing prayer of thanksgiving and supplication on behalf of ward members is given, after which appropriate postlude music is played.

Greatly encouraged, the person leaves this meeting feeling he can make it for one more week. Expressions of love are shared in the foyer or hall in reasonable tones so that the chapel may remain a reverent and holy place.'

I believe that there is more than one person in this chapel today that is here needing this very experience- and the question is, are we doing our part in being reverent for the Spirit to attend?

Brothers and sisters, because of the storm, this week was very chaotic and that’s an understatement. Earlier this month I had talked with Katy and and Emily about attending the temple and doing baptisms for the dead. Our appointment was for yesterday- and when we were in the car, listening to ‘Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing’ I was beginning to see how excited I was to be headed for the temple. We entered and the quiet peace surrounded us. It wasn’t too much longer that my body, and my mental and emotional self- exhaled and I was ready to inhale the Spirit there.

The Lord has said that while he may or may not be able to remove the storms from our lives, He can and does promise us peace. It is my testimony that this is tied into being in sacred places, with a reverence and attitude for the Spirit to be with us.
I’m quoting Brother Bytheway when I say, our great grandfather’s referred to this day as The Holy Sabbath, our grandfather’s called it The Sabbath, our parents called it Sunday, and today it’s often referred to as the weekend…

Reverence toward the Holy Sabbath and The Sacrament begins with an attitude.

We each came here, today, with a container of sorts- perhaps yours is a cup- and you are barely aware of being thirsty. Perhaps another came in with their cup, but they have their hand over the opening, resisting any filling. Still, there are some of you, that came with a jug, as large as possible to carry…and you are anxiously awaiting a fill.

The temple, our homes, and this chapel are three sacred places that we have to turn to when (amongst other things) we need a ‘spiritual fill’.
There is a primary song that I love- and one that I believe has the ability to teach us perspective in our actions, in our attitudes:

If the Savior stood beside me,
would I do the things I do?
Would I think of His commandments,
and try harder to be true?
Would I follow His example?
Would I live more righteously
if I could see the Savior standing nigh,
watching over me?

I would like to suggest that if we had walked in today… and saw the Savior waiting for us, our meeting would be reverent and one to remember forever. And in essence, our Savior wants to be among us- with the Holy Spirit- and can only do so if we invite him. If through our reverence we hold out our jugs- our broken hearts, meaning our open hearts, He can fill it.

Bro. Madsen shared this dream in a woman’s conference talk given in 1999: It was in Amman, Jordan some years ago. We had just come from a parched visit to Egypt where even the native Bedouin can survive, at most, three hours without water. We had said to some of our friends, "This should remind you of the two words spoken from the cross, the only self-regarding words which are a sure sign of the loss of blood. Jesus said: 'I thirst'" (John 19:28).

That night I had a dream. I was beaten down to my hands and knees and was conscious of a burning thirst. In the illogic of dreams there was somehow a small cup filled with liquid—an unearthly liquid. It was radiant. It was delicious. It was cool. But as I lifted it to my lips it was as if two hands were placed behind me, not touching, but close to my head, and from them came a kind of throb, a comfort, a warm feeling, and then the miracle. As I drank in relief, the cup filled again and again. The more I sought to quench my thirst, the more it flowed. A wave of gratitude came over me to the Christ—for in the dream it was Christ. My impulse was to turn around, stop drinking, and thank him. But then came the sweet assurance that my drinking was His thanks—that this was what He most wanted—that this was His reward, even his glory, like a gracious hostess, who takes delight in seeing her family and guests eat heartily. I knew and I knew He knew, so I drank and drank until I was full. Only then was He gone.

I loved that Bro Madsen shared this… and as a side note- I will miss him.
Bro Bytheway suggests in his ‘The Best Three Hours’ that we can be measured by a spiritual yardstick by asking two questions:

1.What do you think about in the Sacrament?
2.And, How do you treat the Sabbath day?

If we were to go back to our scenario, where Christ is here with us today, and the sacrament song is now playing, where would our attention be? How would our hearts feel? How would the sacramental prayers be offered? And how would they be received?

Jesus said (Matt 18:20) ‘where 2 or 3 are gathered in my name, there I am in the midst of them’.

This was shared by Elder David B. Haight while he was standing in the Last Supper room with Bro Madsen:

This man, shortly before, after a heart attack, had been clinging to life, unconscious in a hospital, and was given a repeated dream-vision of Jesus' last week on earth. He said what he had said in General Conference: "I heard no voices but was conscious of being in a Holy Presence and atmosphere. The first scene was of the Savior and his apostles in the upper chamber on the eve of betrayal. Following the Passover supper he instructed and prepared the sacrament for his dearest friends as a remembrance of his coming sacrifice. It was so impressively portrayed to me—the overwhelming love of the Savior for each. I witnessed his thoughtful concern for significant details: the washing of the dusty feet of each apostle; his breaking and blessing of the loaf of dark bread and blessing of the wine; and then his dreadful disclosure that one would betray him. Then followed the Savior's solemn discourse when he said to the eleven: 'These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation, but be of good cheer. I have overcome the world.'"

Then Elder Haight turned to Bro Madsen and said, "We do not appreciate the sacrament enough. It happened! It is real! It is our access to the Savior."

If the Savior stood beside me,
would I say the things I say?
Would my words be true and kind
if He was never far away?
Would I try to share the gospel?
Would I speak more rev’rently
if I could see the Savior standing nigh,
watching over me?

This makes me think that when our Priests kneel at the Sacrament table, in our hearts, we are kneeling too. And just as wonderful as we felt on our baptism, to participate in that ordinance, we would look upon the passing of the sacrament with that kind of joy- because it is a renewal of everything that we believe and love about the Gospel and for what our brother, Christ did for us when He died for us.

Behaving just as we would were He in this room- because he has said: Levitcus 26:2 Ye shall keep my sabbaths, and reverence my sanctuary: I am the LORD.

D&C 109: 21 'And when thy people transgress, any of them, they may speedily repent and return unto thee, and find favor in thy sight, and be restored to the blessings which thou hast ordained to be poured out upon those who shall breverence thee in thy house.'

And The Psalmist said, “Be still, and know that I am God.” (Ps. 46:10.)

We’ve been given a tremendous blessing in having a Holy Sabbath Day. Let us do as He asks, and remember Him. Let’s remember Him as we prepare to arrive and enter the chapel. Remember Him as we participate in inviting the Spirit to join us. Remember Him as we partake of the sacrament. Remember Him in our reverence, always.